Eternal Life in Death

Eternal Life in Death

I can feel everything coming undone,
Every dtail,
Everything I have ever worked for,
I can feel it all falling apart,
I can see it all crashing before my eyes.

As I stand at the edge of the cliff,
I helplessly watch my life tumble over the edge,
I cannot stop it,
I cannot save it,
I can only watch it fall.

I feel myself losing control,
Everything that was once in my grasp,
Now slips through my fingers like sand,
Soon I will have nothing left to lose,
Soon I will have lost everything.

I try to save what I love as it drowns around me,
But as I desperately reach out,
I realize I myself have forgotten how to swim.
I am now ashamed to call this place my home,
This twisted world I once lived for.

No more do I fight the tears,
For I have no more to shed over this hopeless cause.
There is no more sorrow left in my heart,
There is only emptiness there,
While I watch my life plunge below.

As my hopes begin to fade,
And my worlds collide,
I throw my head to the sky,
And all I wonder,
Is why?

What is the point in my heart beating on,
When all else I lived for,
Is already gone?
What is the point in breathing,
When all I breath is poison?

I had so many I loved,
I had so much potential,
I was to be the change I wanted to see in the world,
I was going to make a difference,
Where did it all go wrong?

My worst regret,
As I look back now,
Is knowing I could have stopped this,
But waited until it was too late,
Until I had become the very poison I hate.

Now that I see what I have done,
I would do anything to change this fate,
If only I could take back the lies,
If only I could forgive myself,
If I could do anything but just wait.

Now I pay the consequence,
Life has caught up with me,
All I want is to be with those who believed,
But I left them long ago,
And now they're gone.

And as the last grains of sand trickle from my hand,
The blood-red sun slips below an endless horizon,
I gaze longingly into the black abyss beneath my feet,
Wishing only that it would take me,
Yet knowing my wish will never come true.