Punchdown

say hello to an unexpected nightmare
everywhere she's there I don't care
fills my head with enchanting thoughts
leaves me in disgust mistrust distraught
one night by myself was all I was after
after nights in public filled with disaster
not obeying my own intuitions
not being held responsible for my reactions
goading and swallowing every last drop
turning around to hear my heart stop
she's atop another man I'm heading for the door
say nothing sailor and leave for a new shore
(I know when I see too late the work of a whore)

there was a punchdown at the general store
and I don't think I want anymore

throw a chair in a rage
put the dog back in his cage
pull my fears off the flagpole
floored and unfulfilled while hearing woes
wondering not too innocently or quietly
cheapened falsified the self-induced proprietary
wisdoms to remain exiled for fear of sin
knowing it happened once it may happen again
this house is not for sale
not living here but just making bail
am I too holed-up in the self-worth of my actions
to fool myself into times of little satisfaction

there was a punchdown at the general store
and I don't think I want anymore
lost in everyone else's fights I submerge
plunging even deeper from mine with each urge

a rant so epic in my head means little
the course of life to most not brittle
overcompensating with thought my day
no way what to say nothing's in the way
so honest as I smile
hoping this conversation seems worthwhile
all it does is label me a liar
out from the frying pan into the fire
my candy shell hides an evil center
too scary for even myself at times to enter
no one knows the dangers that are posed
sorry folks the shop is closed

there was a punchdown at the general store
and I don't think I want anymore
took a gun to class and went home dead
still no one knew what I meant by what I said
there was a punchdown at the general store
and I know I don't want anymore
make quick make sick gimme my licks and my fix
get this whole situation over with