The Past

The past continues to haunt me
and eat away at my mind
so many what ifs and if onlys
make me question everything about myself

I have a wonderful life
there’s no doubting that
but sometime I still wonder
how different things would be

I wouldn’t give up what I have
for all the money in the world
but still the past haunts me
and eats away at my mind.

The past forces me to live in fear
fear of repeating those mistakes
causing me to lose all I hold dear
those thoughts torture me daily

I struggle to guard myself
from anyone new I meet
the past forces me to stay alert
and not let anyone get too close

Scars from the past, they run deep
too many regrets, too many questions
I feel like I’m pulled in a million directions
why can’t I just let it all go?

Will the past ever let go of me
and stop haunting me everywhere I go?