No Turning Back

How could you go and leave me like this,
I cannot get you out of my mind.
You know, when I was growing up, sis,
I had you pictured as a goddess of some kind.

I looked up to you, you were my idol, you see,
I loved the way you paid attention to me.
You gave me confidence that I lacked,
I gave you so little back.

You were so beautiful to me,
And I wanted to grow up to be-
Just Like You!
There was nothing you Couldn't Do!
you attracted people like a magnet, sis,
And you embraced them all with a kiss.

We had such dreams together, you and I,
I remember all the things you use to buy.
Why did we have to grow apart like we did,
Oh, How I've wished we could turn back the years,
When we were so close and I was just a kid,
Instead, all I have left is the tears.

You had so many great chances in life,
But, you chose to be that man's wife.
I still tried to stay close to you,
Even though he was no good for you.
I knew you love him, just the same,
I set my feelings aside, especially when the baby came.

I lied about him, for you,
There wasn't anything I would do, for you!
But, the very thought of him sickened me,
Even though I tried to be nice to him, for you, you see.

A part of me was dying to scream,
I kept telling myself, it was just a bad dream.
I was afraid he'd take you both away from me,
So, I kept silent and lied,
And I swore he'd never again touch me,
I felt like a part of me had already died.

I would have died for you, you see,
Because I loved You more than I loved Me.
Then one day, I was grown up, and it came to me,
That you were not as perfect as I'd pictured you to be.

Then your babywas gone too!
You know, I didn't blame you, I hope,
I felt like she was my own,
I did not know how to cope.

I could not even pick up the phone,
To tell you how bad I felt and so all alone.
I shunned you from then on-
Not meaning to, and now You are gone!

Oh, regrets I have to bare now,
You, leaving before I could say goodbye, somehow,
No turning back,
Forsacken, the lack!