I Loved You

laying in the bathtub
warm water covering all parts of my body
slowly grab the razor
cutting into my legs
once, twice, again and again
as the water starts to get a pinkish color
carve the word hate into my left arm
and life on the right arm
carving words into my stomach
watching the blood flow
tears running down my face
i hurt everywhere
the pain so unbarable
slits on my lips and under my eyes
the water dark red
my last words
i yell "I LOVED YOU"
crying uncontrollably knowing ill never see her again
as i slowly fall under the water
reach to the counter and pull the radio in with me
electric shock stuns my body
as i lay there lifeless
in a bloody pool
with the words " I Loved you" carved into my stomach
for her to find