I wish I

I don't know why
I don't understand
You start talking
But it's all hollow

I am nothing
I am not real
I have given it all away.

I wish I would break
I wish I could care.
My family pictures are incomplete
They're all missing me.

You'd see me, but I smile fake.
No one notices and no one cares.

I am broken
I am incomplete
I am a doll that belongs to you.

I wish my family would break
it's better than always waiting.
I want to watch you break
It doesn't affect me anyways.

I don't want people to get hurt
I just don't want to be hurt myself.
I don't need people to comfort me,
I need to watch the truth bleed.

I am sad
I am happy
I am burning

I wish I could say

I am sad
I am happy
I am burning

I wish I could say

When you break I'll cut my hands on the shards
but I won't pick it up anymore.
I don't want to live if this is all it is
give me something more to work for.

I know that you cannot understand
I'm broken and there's no way to repair me

But just this once,
break apart.
I need to see you
Break apart.

If you leave us you'll do us a favor
You're hurting us and I think you hate us
Maybe it's a bit too much, Hmm?

I am living
I am breathing
I am thinking

So why can't I change?

I am living
I am breathing
I am thinking

So what can't I change?

When you leave, lock the door behind you.
When you go, don't come back and call us.
When you aren't here, it won't hurt me.

I'm sorry.

I wish I cared.