"WHO AM I?"

coming to terms years after incest -a surviver

                     

Am I that lonely little girl
feeling terribly, terribly sad
because her trusted Father
treated her so horribly bad?

Or that troubled, lonely teen
feeling so very ashamed.
Afraid to tell anyone for fear
she will be the one blamed.

Or the woman I am now,
from the past trying to flee.
Of course the answer is
that I am all three.

Three victims in one trying
to understand a Father`s abuse.
Who wonders to herself, at times,
"What is the use?"

The memories of my abusive past
have come clearly to my mind.
Now all I really desire to do
is to try and possibly find,

The key, the key to unlock
the unsolved mystery of me.
Maybe then I will understand,
So I can finally be really free.

Free from all the years of anger,
depression, and much strife
that has been a very huge part
of my past and present life.

A life where at times I laugh
and many times I may cry.
Therefore, I am searching
to find out "Who am I?"


                          Carlotta

















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