I Thought...

It was shocking when i found out
what she thinks about me.
Telling me i'm dumb to a tee.

It's really funny in a way
to know what shes thinking today.

I thought she was so proud of me,
I was wrong!
She thinks i'm scum as can be.

I did a lot of wrong when i was young.
I tried to hold my tongue.
I even got pregnant at fourteen.
Everyone was fake and wasn't mean.

I just thought she was proud Because
i try my hardest raising them.
I am wrong all i do is shame.

Now i'm told i was a terrible ADHD child.
That i was far from being good and mild.

It doesn't matter that she makes me cry.
She doesn't care that i really do try.

I thought i was a good mother
of the four boys i have.
To her i'm nothing but stupid and bad.

I love her so much.
I tried so hard,
But nothing did the touch.

I feel so broken up.
To know she thinks that.
I guess i'm just like a door mat.

I really don't understand
I tried to listen to every command.

Now i know she never wanted me.
It was so hard for me to see.

My eyes are wide open now.
I know what she thinks of me.
Oh wow!

She doesn't have to worry.
I'll leave in a hurry.
No sense in me being around.
So i'm stomped deeper in the ground.

I'll go away...
Seeing a smile on her face today.

I thought i was a good person.
I thought i was a good mom.
I thought she was proud.
I Thought wrong.