adagio

You apologized for making me the mistress
My fingers to your lips pausing your words
Hoping to rewind back to where we were just before you said it
Or maybe you could swallow our reality
rewrite the lyrics
Perhaps erase the things you said
or even the moment we met...
But after you left the last time
My mind repeated what you said
Mistress…
And you were sorry it came to this
For so long I was oblivious to the fact that I caused any stress
Never seen any distress signals when you were here
Maybe my mind is tuned into the wrong channel
because I seen, heard and lived your energy
and It felt kinda like love
I felt you
release all stress when you came to me
Taking things to a frequency that was incomprehensible at times
My energy has taken on reflections of yours over the years
You highs and lows
All influencing my life
Slightly affecting the next step I’ll take
& some I made last week
so I feel you on an inaudible level
My muse
The subject
The lyrics on these pages
Four years strong
Ever evolving--
Always back where we started
Again and again
That’s our home
Neither of us have figured out how un loop this
You can’t leave
I don’t want you to
You hate that you can’t control your desire to come back
I wake up sometimes hoping that you don’t call
You dont always answer the phone
I sometimes pray in the middle of the day that you’ll come back tonight
And today you did
So for this moment
I can’t really stress
This repeat cycle that neither of us know how to stop
I’m just going to enjoy being the miss resting in your arms.