here i am

The sun comes up and Im still crying
Im so sick of friends and family lying
I want to be let go and free
Of all the sadness that overcomes me
feels like life is just 1 disappointment
I really dont think life this way was meant
when will happiness drift my way
when will i sleep or comfortably lay
people say grief is nothing but a lesson
but i have yet to see the blessing
is there someone out there thats real
leaves out the games, has feelings to feel
if there is, i patiently await
for nothing less will i venture & date