A girl remembers how things used to be. |
Apathetic thoughts flood her mind. 'What do you want to do?' someone nearby asks. A frustrated sigh is heard when an indifferent shrug is given in response. Her mind begins to wander, for the hundredth time today. When did she stop caring? She questions herself, as she watches the world zoom by outside the car's passenger window. Then she remembers. It was the reaction to the realization that nothing last forever. She sits there eyes closed, as a faint smile graces her lips, and she remembers. She remembers the carefree attitude she once carried, how she never used to second guess anything or anyone. She remembers how she made a family contained of a bunch of outsiders, those who, like her, needed to belong. But then those memories of love and belonging begin to fade as those of hurt and loneliness take over, as they always do. Now the memories of her makeshift family falling to dust are filtering through her mind and, try as she might, she can't stop them from taking over. She remembers the day it ended the day she found out that he was far from faithful. And how it broke her heart when she realized that this meant she could no longer trust him. She remembers the day that followed: both of them standing there, tears racing down her face as she asks why and how he looked away and sighed, then simply said sorry. She remembers the day when her best friend made her choose: him or her. And when she gave no response, she remembers how her friend walked away as she watched through tears. She remembers the day he told her he could no longer see or talk to her, because his girl didn't like them being friends. And she remembers the days she wished she could call them. Wishing they could take away the loneliness that overcomes her sometimes when she thinks of them. A loud exclamation snaps her out of her daze a cigarette is lit, a drink is opened as she attempts to forget what she can't help but remember. |