Fake Outer Walls

People always ask
But never stay around for an answer
To start to ramble
About being the side dish in life
And feeling unworthy
Of everyone’s displeasure

Or to have an response ready
But for no question to come
As I stand in one place
And just watch the world move around me
With no care of my being
And feelings of such hurt

I’ve turned invisible
Somewhere through my small years
But I don’t know where to go back to
If I ever wanted to change it
No matter how much I hold onto the past
Of the bitter sweet memories of my life

Oblivious to only one thing around me
Trying to let go of the past
Yet having the strongest hold on my childhood
As I’m ignored in the loudness of life
Feeling for a small moment to cry
But knowing it’ll blow all cover

Quiet as any abandoned dwelling
Being insignificant as small
Not sure of myself inside
And worrying about what others think
I’m denying everything I am
And only showing my fake outer walls