Drowning out time

yesterday I held a razor blade
put it in between my lip's, prepaired my wirists..
then I put it away...for another day now..
anticipation bleeding still, okay I'm not ready now

I'm so sick of being everyone's bitch,
I let myself be, long long ago
and now I'll never get back..
Please help me out, I never ask for much
aticipation, okay, I am not ready now..

[choras]
yesterday--
I held on to mine
only you--you drown out time--
but it's not that I'm scared or lonely
it's just that I'm fine..all by myself
and I'm worried
[choras]

Yesterday I helped light candles in the dark
blew out a light, prepaired my wounds
then I gave up, and now I can't talk to--
anticipation-- is so yesterday

I'm so sick of giving a damn
I alway's have from long long ago
and now I don't give a crap
please help me out, I don't ask for much
anticipation--blows my mind

yesterday--
I held on to mine
only you--you drown out time--
but it's not that I'm scared or lonely
It's just that I'm fine..all by myself
and I'm worried

[refrain]

now I get out...
now I never get out..
now I go
when you say green light go..
I never give in..
never go out and give in now...
never give up or go back down....
never give them anything..

Yesterday, I held a razor blade
broke it apart from my razor in my bathroom
I held it still and then hid it...oh no oh no

yesterday--
I held on to mine
only you--you drown out time--
but it's not that I'm scared or lonely
It's just that I'm fine..all by myself
and I'm worried

yesterday--
I held on to mine
dont' give a damn if you drown out time--
but it's not that I'm scared or lonely
It's just that I'm fine..all by myself
and I'm worried

just today--
I lost my mind
and all alone I drowned out time--
I'm scared and lonely
and I'm not fine..all by myself I'm not fine...