Haunted

Memories are flashing before me
I can almost reach out and touch them
You’re ghosts of the past
I can’t bring you back

We speak briefly
But your words are empty
I know to you
That mine are too

Please forgive me
I didn’t mean to grow up
And leave you all behind
You’ve betrayed me in the same light

Looking back through the stars
Everyone wore a mask to hide
I did just to keep up
But mine wasn’t good enough

My mask is cracked for you
Does that mean I am not worthy
Or have you forgotten me completely
Do you care

No…no you really don’t
I know this is true
I would mean more to you
But I see that same card in my own hand

I know that you still care
Somewhere in there
I just care more then you do
The pain is almost bearable

I have to wonder
If it was always this way
Or if time was the Trickster
Please tell me you didn’t mean to

I still love you
And dream of you constantly
I’ll keep calling
Maybe one day you’ll pick up

Reassure me
Don’t lie
Tell me honestly
Do you still believe

I can still see your smile
I can still hear your laugh
I can still feel your arm around me
I can still feel your confidence in me

When did you fade away
When did you disappear
When did you leave me behind
When did you dismiss me

Those days feel like yesterday
Those scars you left feel fresh
Those tears you cause are coming back
But only because I miss you so