Forgiveness

I forgive myself for ever having loved you
When I knew nothing would ever come of it

I forgive myself all the humiliations
I allowed myself to suffer at your hands

I forgive the person I turned myself into
Just so you would love me

I forgive myself for the hurt I caused us both
All in the name of  love

I forgive myself for allowing you
to play me like a fool

I forgive myself
For ceasing to live my life
So that I could love you fully

I forgive myself
For choosing you over my family

I forgive myself
For not being able to let you go
And causing myself more unnecessary pain

In forgiving myself 've been able to forgive you
Putting my heart at ease