Dark mirror

And so it seems that I've become
That which I so passionately despise
Hurting only to stop the numb
That's moved from my feet to my eyes
Although I try to set it free
"It" being how I really feel
It's hard to desribe, thus hard to see
And I'm not even sure if it's real
Now I'm up, but really down so low
That I feel I'll never return
To center stage and steal the show
Ahhh...when will I ever learn
Thinking in an outside way
Has boxed my thoughts all in
And now I jump into the fray
While a million more fall in
And what became of me in there
Why am i so different now?
When I look in the mirror I get a stare
From someone I don't know. Owww!!!