These Failures

You look into my misconcepting eyes,
and without question, don't know who I am.
A stranger you've known a life time,
and you strive just to understand.
Questions in the back of your mind,
or dare you even ask?
These failures I've been through,
yearn from my deluted past.
You wonder why this smile is dull,
why the words are stuck.
Why it seems I'm a callous girl,
No, I just finally gave up.
Life is life, I'm just living it each day.
And they can judge me as they please.
Though I havn't been the best,
I did things I can't believe.
It's not been easy at all,
standing where I stand.
Looking for a way ,
looking for a hand.