Regret

Regret

I don't think that a warm smile
Or a cheerful hello can save me
This time
Something more is missing

I regret so much
One being that I didn't pull the trigger
So long ago

I thought once before
That I couldn't get lower
That I wouldn't see worse
Or feel so alone

I regret thinking such thoughts
It got worse, harder, painful
Couldn't you see me suffer
Right in front of you
Yet never really there

Lost within myself
My own version of hell
The regrets I have
I wish to cut away
Remove those scars that never fade

I want help, but who can save me?
I fear that you can't, like so long ago
I regret that you saved me
Why couldn't I just let go
I'm lost
On this long, empty road