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Is this real? This pain I feel Will it ever go away? Will I ever heal? This hurt inside That I’ve felt for so long, How much longer will I stay strong? These painful thoughts haunt me at nite, the tears trickle down as I try to fight. These thoughts that hurt so deep for so much of my life, the outside is normal while inside is much strife A feeling of abandonment alone again I cry To these emotions I’m so vulnerable no matter how hard I try No one can understand the animosity I have inside, because its not about them its from myself I hide I stare at my reflection as it stares back at me, a feeling of affliction the sadness is all I see. Resentful toward myself for being who I am, I wonder why I’m like this why can’t I be like them This feeling overwhelms me I can’t take it anymore, I feel trapped inside myself locked behind this door Surpressed inside are so many feelings I don’t kno how to let out. Because the very thing that hurts is what causes me to doubt. It makes me afraid to just let go and say what I feel inside, That’s why in my lonesome I mourn in someone else I cannot confide I want this anguish to go away as I sit here frail and weak, hoping somehow someone will see my suffering with out me having to speak Grief and sorrow overpower me I feel like I’ll never win, I want to cry out for help but where do I begin? How do I break free from whats held me captive for so long? I Just want to be loosed of this suffering and somehow erase all I’ve done wrong. Erase the memories of the past that no one knows wounded so deep, Words that were said that I wish I didn’t keep. I’m a victim of my own mind I’ve created the havoc that’s within If I were to say how I feel this is how I’d begin Is this real this? This pain I feel Will it ever go away? Will I ever heal? This is the heart of many who don’t kno what to say I’m just another face in the crowd another soul that is so fray |