This is basically about a person who is thinking about suicide. |
time screeches to a complete halt and your life flashes before your eyes everything becomes important everyone even him the one who broke your heart the one you swore to never love again when you swore to never love again and all the hidden pain rushes back into you and you collapse from all the pressures of the past,present,and future sobbing banging your fists on the earth wishing it would go away you hate the pain that's why you concealed it from everyone so no one would worry you plastered on that fake smile and as soon as you alone it broke away leaving red eyes tear stained cheeks you go to shower in a feeble attempt to wash it away again only to feel worse after looking down and seeing his initials carved eloquently into your arm you tried everything but all you really needed was him he could have been your anti-drug since the drugs you had taken didnt work you begin to feel regret you regret forgetting time resumes as normal and you look up to see that the car that came seconds from hitting you was never a car at all big ben chimes midnight you stand and look at the dashed white lines on the ground the alcohol affecting your mind as you stumble you pick up the gun you had held to your head you remeber muttering minutes before "I want to be dead." |