Down

Can’t keep my head still, can’t slow my heart down
Always rollin chemical or none
My stomach swoons with hatred disgust
My love is a sickness that touches my lust
Nowhere in the verse am I able to calm the nothing
As much as I fight it, willingness to live loves to drown

Don’t even look, just keep pecking away
Survival is fittest when production is key executive
Pay happens when given fruitlessly
I turned to you in love for a moment, giving and shown
Riddled with contempt and handled with rejection
No where is safe, numbness gives way to the freak show below
Bitterness from then horns your passion sleeplessly

Help screams out as a bloodthirsty shutter
Wasting days and riddling nights with floods of tears
Beers help sometimes, or just make it worse
I want to soften tight hard nerves and innards
But drowning them instead with tears and wares of whorish delights

Spinning and sick, not even drunk
Emotion feeds me dinner to bed
No nutrition or fruition, only greed and distrust
Eating away the salvaged delights of your headstrong determination
To stay with me and love me
Blind of compromised frightening deterrents and admiration

I stay and am exanimate
I go and am antagonist
Fighting is all I know
Moving is the only way to go forward into this life full grown