Them

How can you tell what they’re saying
When you can’t see their face?
How do you know they aren’t grimacing
when they’re hiding behind a mask?
How do you know they aren’t annoyed with you
When you’ve both been playing a game for too long?
How do you know they think theyre better than you
When they feel bad for you?
How do you know they feel bad for you
When they can’t read their thoughts?
How can you know they want you to go away
When they abduct you to leave you out?
Why do they manipulate you?
Exclude you?
Torture you?
Lampoon you?
Show you they’re more popular than you?
How do you know what they think?
You know when you
See that glare after a grin
An exchanged look after a scene
A direct indication that no one likes you.
A rolling of eyes
When you’re mad at them and show it.
A snicker and complaint
When you’re behind their back and they don’t know it.
How do you know whose on whose side
When you;'ve just stepped in quietly?
When you’re only hearing part of the conversation?
When have you turned into the code name that they talk about?
When do you when they’re talking about you without mentioning names?
They’re the ones that have
Troubled you
Worried you
Laughed at you
Turned you red in the face
Made you a loner.
They’re the shallow ones who need designer names and talking about themselves to keep them going.
They need the gossip and popularity.
They’ve made yous omething you didn’t want to become
The nerd
The geek
The loser
The shy one in the back.
And you went along with them
Their partys
Songs
Friday nights
For what?
Someone explaining what a sad person you are?
So why do you cling onto these manipulaters
That only need you for a good laugh?
You’ll laugh too,
A laugh out of place
Making you seem an outsider in a world of close friends.
A laugh too large to be real.
But only for a while.