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this is a prison don’t hold me in don’t hold me back don’t keep me here I am worth so much more than this I will not be here forever this is not going to be my prison I make my prison I make my prison in my own mind and I will not let these walls become it and so I am freeing myself from the walls the locks and chains and endless body checks and I am gritting my teeth to the grain and biting the hand that starves me that holds me back and I am not crazy not insane not begging for relief not a danger to society so this prison hospital prison is not my keeper you can lock the doors and hold the keys and know the combinations but I know so much more than you I know that paper gowns and sweat suits cannot hold me back from my destruction I know where to hide these things you keep from me how to keep them with me and you cannot take my tools away I know that pain is gain and hunger hurts and that for a short while I can pull the wool over your eyes can fuck you over and I can get you fired because I know the rules you may have put me here against my will against my wishes but that does not mean that I have no control I can fuck you over I can fuck myself over and you can do shit to stop me try restraints try force-feeding try to drug me into oblivion but I will always break free I know the rules I know how to break the rules rules are meant to be broken and I do not need them I don’t need any of this this is a prison hospital prison and stuck here I will break free I will break free if only in my mind and I will be completely free and I will not care I will not think about any of it I refuse to care because I cannot and I am turning myself over to destruction because you will not let me out and I will not let myself in |