Faithful Departed

Step outside, cold air in my face
Nothing to feel, just stare in distaste
Why am I here? I do not know
Maybe a constant reminder
Of how things come and go

Open my eyes, nothing to feel
An empty circle, these dreams aren't real
Promises are made
To be broken, they say
Promises are meant, to keep hearts together
But that’s just me, does it even matter

Look in on my side, a struggle you see
People feel bad, but only till they leave
No one thinks and no one cares
Just another day, with my judgment impaired
Oh look, there he is, a love blinded fool
A fool, a fool, a fool indeed

Think of the past and think of right now
What went wrong, will I ever find out
Believe it or not, it’s always on my mind
Tell me what to do, it just makes me whine

I never was like this, never a stray
But now it seems, that’s too little to say
I was not aware of what I had not
Until I met, a lady of a lot

She gave me love, she showed me the way
I believed I was complete, until that day
It hit me hard, it hit me bad
I could not breathe, I was just too weak

Then I realized how incomplete I was
My shame came to me, in a weird sort of way
I watched my days, and watched my nights
It all went by, slow as a fight
My mind was hurt, my head was spun
I was tangled in, with no where to run

Show me the way, I dared to say
A dare it was, as it still plays
Haunting my life, with nightmares of old
Many things that should not have been told

Now I am scared, what to do
I don’t think I’m saying anything new
So tell me now, what you think
Am I a saint or am I a bane?

Black and white, not two more shades
Colors that swirl, not to fade
Mixed up emotions, I fear too much
Maybe now I should just shut up

Is it not me, am I ashamed
No it can’t be, but who am I to perceive
Ashamed I am, of the things that I say
But I should be not,
It is my friends, I pray!

What do they say? Oh yes that’s right,
"People and things change!", I cannot fight
Another one lost, lost in the struggle
Don’t come to me now, I struggle no more

You left me, I am not retarded
Just one more faithful departed!