A Child's Cry

Dear God,
You sent Your Son to die for me. Why?
You of all people know that I'm not worthy.
I've gone through a transformation once already.
Many times, I've needed You.
This time it looks like You need me, too.
I'm tired of waiting for You.

Please dear God, reveal Yourself to me.
It's only through You that I know who I am.
Sometimes, I listen, but I can't hear Your voice.
It's like You're not even there so,
I start to wonder, do you even care?
I see myself when I'm with You.
A part of me no one
can see 'cept You and me.

Sometimes, I can't feel Your presence.
My Spirit says You're there,
but do you really care?
I cannot go on like this;
pretending that You don't exist.
In my heart, You've always been true,
always there when I needed You.
I know that I'm not perfect but
still, that's no excuse.
I just feel so
emaciated, empty, and confused.

Am I dead? Or just spiritually anorexic?
Either way, that's no excuse
not to give my life up to You.
I cannot live a single day without giving You,
Master, some kind of praise.
My only prayer is that Your Will be done.
Thank you very much for showing me the Way.
The things You've done,
I could never repay.
Just know that I thank You,
each and every day.