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The Season of Disability Each apple seeks balance, not pull of gravity, nor ache of solar wish to the core, its etherealness belongs the dream of goats tended by those unemployable. The meshing and the washing off the shore to work the birth of churchly deeds, an aspirin prayer, a tree is planted, grows in drought, miracle of thought of those whose arms waste for grasp of relaxation, taking refuge from the brew made lately, maddening sons rambling to drive the dawn to afternoon of escape sought tenaciously, fear is so well-worn here, a tantalizing bird stops to rest. Two-legged bricks heave a song against the angry lawn, not enough to dispel sad sparrows in twilight no one is aware of pain or where those sparrows go, to sleep or pack up nests away to dream again; the sullen cats fall from trees and scratch at all polite. The ones who have no waking, no desire to greet the floor, let in the cats and feed them. A sudden motion is a broken alphabet, the sink-edge becomes a crutch, the legs laugh and give away. Despair becomes daily bread, comfort seeks out the deserving best and bleeds inward to the marrow. Quickly found the scalpel fixes compass points, all directions become exact, correct. Again the natural order adjusts the calendar to senselessness, eating moons. The solar winds disrupt spines made table scraps left alone, no dream melancholy alights. Each stool and bench in a haze of sunflowers and wobbly horses mutters against the musty mansion the slick man there takes one last smoky breaking, unlocks the gate, driving out crying hands. Pineapple aspirations appear to housewives' apparitions, gathered from closets tightly guarded with ageless paneled veneer, pressed as centuries escaping the loss of smokestacks. Angular filings lamentable are stylized flames, haughty flags of commerce. There is no magic of comets here suckling tigers, the outer planets chasing monkeys stealing the laughter, confounding cash registers kneeling to incubate evil fortune. In Africa the radios march a flooding memory, much is made of progress and its loss. But again is come the erect demand confronting the wrinkled cities where dwells the desert's stolen fable. Taken home, if that is true enough, is clarity of guilt to set beside the leaky skull, the drainboard musing all these bleached familial things, the cost is ticket and trumpet blowing. Sons and daughters cast their lines in oceans of compensation seeking to be justified wanting the death of timeclocks, the bankteller's stiff tongue speaking cadences of crisp collars. The perfumed knees are shorelines of lust leading to anxiety of trousers and locker rooms. The day is bathed away, industriousness drains down the tiles in soapy regret. As jackals, as hungry sunset, the highway is unfolded miles driven by flexed eyes seeing the odometer shatter ligaments, ribs, all becoming escaping vacuum, asteroid bones hurling age against youth, testing faith on steel-toed boots. All inglorious insects gather memoranda, organs moaning, sanctifying briefcase vouchers balancing chemical truth against the timeless harvests, ledgers of the water table wasting genecity while wells run dry. Served up are glasses of sanguine, lachrymose liquors, squeezed between sweaty curses, taken as sacrament, blessed as healing scars. Again, at night, ruddy moons are eating muscles, some nightmare of capillaries, confused erratic opera of cellular long division, armageddon of apertures gone awry, dancing chromatics of uneven fences, jagged harbors where ships are corked bottles. The sailor's bed is a fallen leaf. A man takes razor in hand, starts to rake autumn from the mirror. Blizzards of pain storm through the glass, the apple, a whispered spectre of strength rots in the eye, which sees the menu of death on flat gray fields. |