Love

Love,
You get chances...

Me,
Well I lost,
I lost mine...

I lost it to stupidity,
Senselessness,
Disregard,
& disrespect…

Now what,
I can’t move on…

I feel stupid,
Lonely,
Sad,
Lost…

I couldn’t believe it till now…

How I was,
How I acted,
How I look back and realize…

I treated her wrong,
I didn’t listen,
I didn’t pay attention,
I didn’t do right…

How I let her feelings have no impact on me…
How I let people tell me things and ignore it…

Now,
Now I have changed,

I went and stood up to my wrongs…
It felt good…


But now, now
I am sad,
Lonely,
Hurting,
Bleeding with pain…

But there is nothing,
Nothing I can do,

She is happy,
She’s moved on,
Or so I believe…

I… I can’t,
I won’t...

I hurt her,
I had the best there was,
And I threw it out the window…

And now,
No one else,
No one,
This will not happen again…

I don’t want them to hurt like she did,
It was horrible, and I did nothing…

It’s over,
No more,
No more love…

I can’t go through this pain anymore,
I can’t let anyone go through this pain…

It’s done…

She was the one,
And I lost her...

Now no one,
I will be without anyone…

No one to cause pain to,
No one will shed tears because of me…

I write this as a reminder to myself...

“Imagine,
Imagine if you wouldn’t have screwed up…

“You could have kept her,
That love of your life,

But now,
Now it’s too late…”

“You can hope and wish all you want,
But nothing,
Nothing will get her back…”

“You have to live through the sadness…”
“The loneliness,
The Pain,
Everything…”

It hurts,
Knowing I should have done better,
But now,
Now I must deal with it…

“Her love, affection and everything she gave to me,
Will never stop affecting me.”
         
“I now will live forever in…

Pain, Loneliness, and sorrow.”