A Rap about my life in the past. On "A Rapper's Ambition". |
(Introduction) Yo I've felt a lot of pain and depression Throughout my life I want to take the time To just explain it Solumly (Verse One) Ay yo There's so much pain I've kept bottled up inside I used to just let shit slide I was so deep in depression That the slightest bad comment about me Would seep into my soul I was never whole back then I would cry Ask why I had to live Through this Hell Well, sometimes I had hoped to die 'Cause you see I've had a pain so deep That it's almost hard to explain But I'll be plain And tell you my life has been fucked up Since eleven (Chorus) My Past Life Contained a pain so deep It took me so long Before I obtained happiness I rap this crap To release all my pain Peacefully (Verse Two) Now I would sometimes walk on the street Makin' a beat Just thinkin' of life I have lived life Without a proper father He became such a bother He would sit on his ass Get fat He's so bad It's so sad I'd walk on the street Ready to scream You couldn't dream Of all the pain I kept bottled inside my soul And every time it began to rain I'd dispense of this pain peacefully But my pain never became weak You see There was once this jolly girl Named Holly Who I had once went out with But she had become a bitch She would try to control me When we broke up It felt like she had parolled me But she lasted in my soul As a pain too deep to end If my pain was a physical object It'd be too strong to bend I'd some times wish to be laid on my death bed I wish I could've taken meds But now I wonder What is asunder In this life of mine (Chorus) My Past Life Contained a pain so deep It took me so long Before I obtained happiness I rap this crap To release all my pain Peacefully (Verse Three) Now Me bein' an MC Is a way to relieve stress, you see But so many have decided To make my life a mess Ever since they had discovered I had wanted to rap They've called me a poser Called me a sick wit Who could not spit But I have proved them wrong So many times Crimes have been committed on me My mental health had been degraded My family has barely any wealth The mony I get I split with my honey But I still can smell The tears Whoever hears The echoes of my past Will understand That my life has been such a mess Who would like to try to depress Me once again? (Chorus) My Past Life Contained a pain so deep It took me so long Before I obtained happiness I rap this crap To release all my pain Peacefully (Verse Four) I'd like to take the time To make a rhyme About my father You see This fat ass man Who thought he was the king Has been such a bother My father was nothing worthy of the title He thought he was cool But would drool over cars more Then help me with my work He made me work around the house I don't know what was worse And I'll explain it in this verse Tryna finish homework Or bein' forced to do his shit He never showed any affection He just looked in the other direction I'd never be this way to my children Well... if I had children I'm just to young I was brung up to be A kind man But in my mind There is so much shit That it makes it hard to be nice But I might as well fight To keep this world in a good state I'd go to any Hood And preach about the Lord My depression is like an evil horde So much pain I have obtained I've kept it bottled in too long It was so wrong But, hey Now my life is lookin' bright The clouds are gone That shroud of darkness missin' I'm cheerin' Hearin' the Angel's bliss I have Faith now I love her so much No one could ever take her away from me (Outro) Yeah, That's my more depressing life In my own words Every verse that talks 'Bout my girl Is totally comin' from my mind and heart Faith, babe If you're hearin' this track Sit back and close your eyes And keep thinkin' 'bout me 'Cause I'm thinkin' 'bout you I love you, girl Let's never split up again I love you You're my Angel Yeah A Rapper's Ambition B. Rock MC Sergeant Cartwright Nightmare Entertainment Underground Peace out And, Faith I love you with all my heart, girl |