sometimes

one more night I’ll cry myself to sleep
one more night of unhealing pain
just one more weep
as I look out at the rain.

I feel so alone in this place
sometimes I wonder if my friends are really my friends
sometimes I wonder if all their words are more lies ill one day have to face.
at times I don’t even think they know what it feels like to feel like your heart is begging to bend.

do people say things about me behind my back?
is there a single person in this world I can truly trust?
threes no one in this world who likes me, I got to see that fact
everyone at one time or another made a part of our friendship rust

deep down inside for once I just want to find someone who likes me for me
I want to find a true friend who understands what im feeling
someone who wont try to make me what they want me to be
if only I could find someone like that. Anything is what im welling.

at times I wonder. If I were to die today would even a single tear be shed?
would a single heart be broke?
would anyone even notice I was dead..
I think I’ve lost ever ounce of hope..

no matter how much I try I always end up loosing the ones I care most for.
maybe I care to much and scare people away..maby im to scared to talk to someone and miss out on my chance..
no matter what it seems like I always get the kick out the door.
and im stuck alone again in a single glance.

sometimes I wonder if this life is worth living for
sometimes I just want to give up. Then maybe the world would be a better place
sometimes I just wish I had someone who cared for me a little more..
sometimes I feel life is nothing but a game and im always coming in last place in this race.

im tired of being alone
I want to feel like I belong
im tired of feeling my heart sink way down below
please someone show me that there is someone out there..pleese just someone prove me wrong.