this story is about having cancer and how it feels! (I have never had cancer) |
I smell the fresh, warm, summer air that is now blowing in my direction. I’m lying in the warm sun on a piece of material that is hooked up to two trees by a piece of rope. It’s peaceful out here. There is no noise to bother me here! I can’t hear the traffic on the highway because the highway is too far away. It is five minutes away from where I’m lying. My darling kitten, Indo, is lying on my stomach, purring intensely, telling me that she is here for me and that she loves me so much. She is asleep and she hopes that this lasts forever, but it won’t! Mum will come home and wake us both up, raving her car wheels and tooting her horn to let us know that she is home from work. She is a scientist trying to discover a break through to cure my cancer and to prove the doctors wrong. My cancer is really hurting Mum a lot. I’m lucky it is not growing really fast or I may not have a chance to live. The doctors warned my family and friends that I may only have months to live and when I found out I was so shattered. I was so scared that I didn’t talk to anyone for a whole week. I just lay on my bed every single day, scared! It was so tragic. I didn’t even check my emails, which is weird because I’m on every single night, chatting to my friends and sending emails. My parents were taking me to see a counselor to help get me to talk again, to help get my voice back, to help me deal with this, but it didn’t work. I ended up refusing to go, which is not like me at all! I finally spoke on a sunny afternoon when my close friend, Alan, came over to see me. He was so distraught by the news he came to visit me every afternoon after school on the bus. It was a long way for him to drive, but his Mum thought it was a good idea to try to get me to talk. I bawled my eyes out, hugging him close, telling him I didn’t want to die. I didn’t want to feel pain. I wanted to die my way. The way I have dreamt of all my life. I close my eyes with Indo purring loudly on my lap. I can hear my Mum crying loudly, but I can’t wake up. I couldn’t get up to hug her, to take away the pain of my death because the cancer has beaten me, taking my life and all the emotions of my family, and my closet friend Alan! |