Unnoticed with another happier ending

Unnoticed




I can see him across the room. Tall, strong build, short dark hair, eyes to match and an easy smile. My heart skips a beat and butterflies go rampant in my stomach every time I see him. I can’t help, but watch from afar. Too shy not make my self noticed. I'm too afraid of being rejected. Still I want to go up to him and say hi. Maybe he’ll look down and it will be the magic moment when our eyes meet. Inside my head a laugh at such a silly notion, but is it so silly?

When he looks over in my direction, what does he see I wonder? Does he see me or just another face in the crowd? Does he like what he sees? Will he approach me? I hope that he does. Still, apart of me is afraid if he does come over to sit with me. What will I say? What will I do? Will I make a fool out of my self and he’ll go away laughing at me. I would be in his eyes some silly woman with a crush on him. It would just be something to tell his friends about and laugh.

I take a chance and glimpse his way to watch what he is doing. I feel ridiculous, like I’m some schoolgirl peeking around corners to get a glance at her high school heartthrob. I have to remind myself that I’m a grown woman and should act my age. Still it is fun in a way. Knowing, I can still feel this way, that it doesn’t go away as you grow older. A man can appear in your life and not even know that he is causing your heart to jump or feeling giddy whenever you see him smile.

Watching from the corner of my eyes I spot him walking towards me, my heart starts to race. The giddiness washes over me. Could it be that he is coming over to me? Will I be noticed this time or will I go unnoticed? Quickly I straighten my hair, do a quick check of myself. I sit up straighter, shoulders back with some confidence.

He is getting closer. I can feel my anxiety rise. I hope today is the day, but part of me tells me different. Why would he aware my presences now? What is different today than any other day? Just got to love that negative side that pops up when you least need it or want it.

Everything stops for a moment when he is in front of me and then he walks past me. Giddiness gone, my heart stops racing. I feel like I’m invisible to him. Why can’t he see me? Why is it I can’t be seen by him? Am I always going to go unnoticed? Is being a wallflower the fate I have given myself? Right now, yes. Nerve is something I lack. Wishing doesn’t make it happen, or things come true. I do wish though I was back as a schoolgirl because I could get my best friend to give him a note or go and talk to him to see if he likes me.

I do what I always do and that is to get up from where I was sitting and go on with my day. Hoping that I’ll catch another glimpse of him another day. Maybe the next time we pass I’ll finally talk to him, make him notice me. For now I watch him walk by with his friends walking with him. As he goes by his head turns in my direction. He's looking right at me and he smiles. I can’t but help but return the smile. Maybe today I’ll not go unnoticed.