Survival

i give you everything, everything...
yet your still not pleased
what do you want?
my tears, blood, and sweat not enough for you
i once was stronger than you, yet im still here fighting you
i dont' even cry anymore, whether good or bad...
you just don't give a damn
when is it my turn?
i love you whole-heartedly
just for you to rip me a part
i know im stupid and still willing
what drugs have you given me?
im not the same--i am afraid
why are you all the same?
why must i still be in this lie?
i am asleep yet so awake
numb to the touch, thought, feeling...
how you help me to hate you so
death to love is my only hope