Unexist

I took a look at my life today
Laughing as tears fill my eyes
I don't know what I can say
As I remember all my lies
I told myself that I was fine
When I knew I was dying inside
I was really lost in time
As I contemplated suicide

I hate to reminisce
It only seems to fuck with me
Something I will never miss
When I end this misery

I hide the scars on my wrist
But I have wounds that will never heal
I thought I wanted to unexist
Because the pain was to real

I hate to reminisce
It only seems to fuck with me
Something I will never miss
When I end this misery

Now the tears start to sting
So I try to forget the past
But I still remember everything
And I don't know how long I'll last

I hate to reminisce
It only seems to fuck with me
Something I will never miss
When I end this misery