serenity

my mind is in turmoil
the gods of chaos forever rule
sex is violence
flowing seemlessly
from mind numbing intensity
to hushed silence
each new day
brings new choices
new pleasures in pain
but nothing is gained
society itself is crumbling
at an ever increasing rate
out of nowhere a door apears
and opens to world that seems far to real
light pouring over me like a soft spring shower
bathing me in courage and a new sense of honor
what i lost along the road given back tenfold
a sense of tranquility allowing me to break the mold
and take the final fateful step
along the path to find serenity in death