Obsessed

Your eyes hide a sadness,
I cannot explain,
The moment I see them,
My heart fills with pain,

I want to make it better,
But what can I do.
If only you saw,
How much I love you.

Maybe I'm crazy,
Completely insane,
Whenever I'm thirsty,
You are my rain.

If your words are the water,
My ears are my thirst.
You are the euphoria,
In which I'm immersed.

I can't ever help it.
You cloud all my thoughts.
I try to get rid of it,
With quick painful shots.

This doesn't feel normal,
I need you too much.
All I keep thinking,
Is when we next touch.

You're absence in my day
Is wearing me thin.
I feel as if I'm bound,
To that cute little grin.

I long for you so,
That I feel my heart breaking.
My blood runs so fast,
That my body starts shaking.

Am I going crazy?
Have I gotten lost?
Was there some obvious line,
That I shouldn't have crossed?

If the sight of your sadness.
Fills me with pain.
Does that mean I'll never
Feel happy again?

I walked into a forest,
In which I've lost my soul.
It's like I'm trying to reach,
Some infinite goal.

I have foresaken my Self,
In order to get you,
Unfortunately for you,
The same is not true.

You did take my heart,
Just grabbed it away,
I thought we could happen,
What more can I say.

Now I'm tired of waiting,
Of being so depressed.
I gave you the world,
Yet you still failed the test.

I can't take it any longer,
My patience is broken.
You don't need to explain,
Your actions have spoken.

I think I'm more valuable,
Than you're cheap little tricks.
Your whole complex image.
Is held up by thin sticks.

You can't really fly up
And soar through the sky.
I just want to leave
And finally say goodbye.

Yet, I see you enter the room
Through the thick wooden doors,
And the sight of your face,
Brings me down on all fours.

I want to crawl towards you,
Be united once more,
I'm drowning in your promises,
And can't reach the shore.

I long to see your smile again,
Just a glimpse of your heart,
You're the drug that holds me up,
Keeps me from falling apart.

"So SAY something, please!
I beg you." I whisper.
Autumn is among us.
The leaves are getting crisper.

I'm running out of time,
Before I disappear.
No longer will my face be held,
Within the glass mirror.

I want to stop desperately,
Retain my own nature.
But I'm betting my life,
And losing the wager.

So say a word to me,
Indulge me with a breath.
Without your presence,
My next stop is death.