I Forgot

I forgot to tell you that I love you
I forgot to squeeze you, kiss you, honor you and hug you
I forgot your promotions, the first kiss, our anniversaries and your birthdays
I frogot that when we made love, we made the earth shake
I forgot to trust you, instead I disgraced and disbelieved you
And in anger and fear, I forgot how much I need you
I also forgot how to treat you
and only when it suited me, I would greet you
I forgot for a second
that the person I cheated on you with and broke your heart with was your best friend
Damn, I'm a jerk, I frogot to pick you up from work
You'd be home alone worried about me and I'd be in strip clubs looking up skirts
We argued over everything and yet I forgot why
When I think of you with someone else, the visions make me cry
I forgot how to share and our love nest, I kept it messy
You said "If I didn't change, you'd leave me", but I forgot 'til the day you left me
I forgot basic hygiene
Between the empty Jack Daniel bottles, flashbacks and tears the thoughts keep my eyes wide like light beams
I forgot to call at all, never mind the change of plans
Being with you has made me a better ever changing man
I know it now, I love you and I know you feel the same too
But if you forgot that I ever existed, I wouldn't blame you!

L.H.