Your love was fake

This can't be real.
You could never be so cruel!
What did I miss?
How can you treat me this way?

I want to crawl under the ground
Find a shovel and dig deep down.

Part of me believes you'll come find me
Reassure me
Tell me
That I wasn't wrong about you.

Part of me knows
you won't.

I don't feel as brave as I once did
I am shaking, runny, messy.
I am afraid...spirit-less

I am broken.
Almost desperate
Almost admitting
I have never felt so lost.

Pretty pathetic.