i am imagining

As i have started strolling through my mind, i find myself walking on a rutted path to whom the heavens above owe a lot, for they had always conferred upon him the sweltering gleams of logic and reasons. And now it covets to be inundated by emotions which cant be reasoned and smiles which cant be logicalized...
Intermittently, in frustration, i run across hither thither for a sanctuary but these hideouts elapse in a very small space of time to stall me from dropping into a darkened abyss...
And then suddenly, out of nowhere there is a flash of thy...
and i smile.
Out of extreme desperation, frustration, wailing and crying... I smile....

Hitherto, i have never felt so much thirst to see my own self.

I want to peek at my self that how do i look when i am thinking of you and smirking. I wonder if this smile can even be compared with even the silhouette of yours but still it will be drastically enough to satisfy all my temptations.
But i don't want to see my self.
For that will stop me from imagining you...