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You look at me
With eyes of lust
Your hands move forward
You say we must

I move away
My body shakes
I fear you can hear
The sound my heart makes

It beats against
My hollow chest
I want you too
But not like this

You say you love me
You say it's true
But is it a lie?
Can I trust you?

I think to myself
Do I feel the same?
Does my heart flutter
To hear you name?

When we’re together
Just us two
Everything’s perfect
I need only you

Then things started to change
You weren’t the same
You’re words of affection
Changed to words that sting

When I felt down
And needed you there
You weren’t around
It didn’t seem fair

This love you spoke of
It didn’t seem right
I was beginning
To see the light

Now as we sit
Here in the dark
You hand on my thigh
Close to its mark

I begin to wonder
How many lies you’ve told
To get what you want
To get to the gold

I push your hand away
Say no, it’s not the time
You look angry and hurt
Sulk, and say “Fine!”

I can’t help but think
The feelings aren’t there
It was all a sham
All just a dare

I sit there a moment
My head hung low
I feel like I’ve wronged you
Though I don’t know how

It is my choice, my right
To keep what is mine
So why do I feel awful?
So horrible inside

I open my mouth
As if to speak
But the words don’t come
I feel shaken and weak

Another moment passes
The tension, it builds
Are we right for each other?
Does my heart feel fulfilled?

The questions, they come
Stabbing at my heart
Soon, I know,
They will pull us apart

Not right for each other
This I knew
But I denied the truth
Because I loved you

But now I know
What I must do
Soon I will have to tell you
We just do not fit