nightmare fetish

Two doors inside my head
Leading down to the dark place
Close my eyes, curled up in my bed
One set of keys, jingling in my brain
In rhythm with footsteps
Close my eyes, run my hand over the windowpane
Dust on my fingers
And dirt on my face
Close my eyes, the silence and the stillness
Tepid showers, mental illness
Two thousand voices, coming from the hallway
Two thousand voices call for me
Get over it, honey
Nightmares come, nightmares go
Cold water flowing
Move on, honey
Get calm, get strong
Smells like burning rubber
I think I need it to feel alive
Just one more night inside
One more cold set of eyes
Another glance at the metal-screened skies
Lay your hand on my skin
Put your fingers in
Get on with it, honey
Stand up, keep walking
Hands together, eyes on the floor
I think I need it to feel alive
Body pressed against the door
Get over it, honey
They can’t hear you
Tastes like helplessness
Kind of stings the tongue
Oh yes, delicious fear
The sound of keys jingling in my ear
How long will you keep me here?
Because deep inside, I never want to leave
I feel bound to this
Give me the keys; put them in my hand
Let me hold them to my chest
The little girl inside me needs those keys near her to rest
Put your hands on my pale sallow skin
Stick your fingers in
Run your eyes like a hot shower on my body
Throw my door open and check up on me and where I’ve been
Put your keys in.