the someday love song (2)

I'd be a mess, broken and destroyed
placed in a hospital for better use
perhaps just lonely,meloncholy and confused

a diffrent person, destined for hell
lies and secrets i wouldn't tell

consumed in fear mishapen by the pain
cracked my wrist open spilling my vain

forgotten by someone but no one to hold dear
i told him to help me but he didn't hear

or just remain silent and go away real far
leave my beginning and live in a car

pass out my religeon and focus on my demon
committ to a bad habit and float without feelin'

stain my reputation so that everyone could tell,
and complain to my creator that my empire fell

kill my soul, steal a new one and so forth
and follow the rain, follow it north

and even then would i let you forget me after i lay down to die,
and whisper like the sound of emotion after a lie

depressed or clinically insane
obsessed by all the cocaine

ruin a thousand lives, those wich i wouldnt compare
crying tommorow for a day i cannot repair

a future untold, i wouldnt want
but in my broken hope that somedays it haunts

it's destiny,im glad i never knew
because you changed it all
you made it so it wouldnt come true
what would've been of me if i wouldn't have met you