My Thoughts Speak Aloud.

I sit in this darkness coverd in silence..
I can hear them,my thoughts forming to make sense
I fall asleep with memories repeating themselves.
I awake to feel like yesterday is still today.
Traped in this neverending pain,without solution.
I continue to run further in the wrong direction.
Noone will stop to help the lost and lonley.
My own battle to conqure and defeat this evil...
I put myself here and i will find the way out...
Temperaly i discribe what im going through.....
With the goal set in mind to regain all iv lost..
I awake everyday feeling more sober than the last
Convidence i regain with being sober and clean..
The poison slowly dies off to feel more human..
Over time i beleave pain heals itself with lesson
So i hold no regret for the way things turn out..
I was given true love at a young age.
I also felt heart break before i knew myself.
Blinded by all my answers to my problems i faild.
I had to fall to gain the strength to stand alone
I fell on my face to awake with the answeres...
To all to I never knew or understood.
Iv been able to focus while time spent alone...
My feelings make sense under my control..
Anger I dont let come over me...i wont hurt you.
My heart wont stop until i have what i need...
Years,months,days,may pass until i can love again
Until then my mind remains in this darkness...
In which is consumed by silence that trys to kill
Every thought that speaks aloud to make perfect sense of lifes nothingness.