Dream of Reality

Today I awoke and it was dark

but i looked around and I was home

so this i know has to be a dream

so i stayed asleep and carried on

so i decided to take a walk ,

its been so long since I've seen the streets ,

and i smiled as to God I talked

just giving him thanks from where he delivered me,

But as I was bending the corner,

i seen a young boy crunched down on the curb,

and i heard him crying "Lord why me? why me?"

so i thought I'd gove him God's comforting word

as i walked closer to this boy,

I began to pray "Lord I need help.

for I don't know what I ought to say,

but you know exactly how this boy felt."

so as I approached him

he had is head between his knees

I reached out and said "kid!"

but he got up and ran from me

I yelled "kid slow down" as i quickly ran after him

"I'm not gonna hurt you !"

I yelled again " I just wanted to tell you,

its ok God heard you!"

then he ducked off in an alley,

that was darker than the streets,

so then I stopped cuz i was a little afraid,

and just yelled "Jesus will set you free!"

As i began to walk away,

still hearing the wailing of his cries,

he yelled choking other his tears,

" I, just wish,I,could die!"

So I turned back feeling my heart crush,

for a young boy who just needs a friend,

so i walked deeper in the alley and said "you don't really want it to all end?"

He was silent for a moment,

as I heard him sniff his nose,

"you just don't understand" he replied

then I said "well how do you know?

I've been at that point in my life

where I felt i wanted to die,

then Christ gave me a reason,

why he wants me alive"

Then his wailings began ti just be sobbing,

and he said " I just want the pain to go away"

" I know I do too" I replied,

"and with Jesus it will one day"

so with that I walked a little closer,

hoping I might see his face,

but he yelled "STOP! You stay where you are at!

I got a gun and I'll use it I'm not afraid!"

ok, now my heart is really speeding up its beat,

and im thinking now this has gotten way out of hand,

my thoughts and body says retreat,

but something in my heart said help this young man,

Now though I'm really nervous

I don't want him to know I'm scared,

so I said "what is the difference,

if you kill me over here or over there?'

He said "I'm not gonna kill you,

but if you come closer I'll kill myself,

and you obviously act like you care,

so don't move or else"

I said "Now why do you wanna die,

do you think its worth it?"

he said "I do things I don't wanna do,

So to live is that worth it?"

I replied "Listen you gotta stay strong,

I've felt the same things you now feel."

He yelled "Yeah well than are you over there and not where im about to be?!"

My eyes started to tear,

cause i felt like I was running out of time,

I need somehow to fight my fear,

and tell him everything will be fine

but now I wasn't so sure of that myself

and my palms started to shake and sweat,

he said "mister thank you but you cant help,

tell my family I love em still yet

I cant stay and I think they'll understand."

I stood silent, confused, now whats going on,

he said "when its over take this letter from my hand,

and tell the rest I've passed on"

I yelled "this is crazy!

c'mon Kist stop!

he said "no,its painful"

then i heard a gunshot.

I quickly ran to him,

yelling "no,no,no!"

he lay face down on the ground

and i cried "no,no,no"

then i grabbed the letter from his hand,

and it said " To my daughter, Now I'm free"

and sudden pain threw me straight to my knees,

then I turned over the body and it was me



Then the deputy woke me up,

and said "you ok, I heard you yell"

i said "I'm fine," but then I realized,

I failed to save myself.

Damn.



**We cant save ourselves from the destructive path we're on. The man that knew Christ was at peace until he tried to save himself.

And like that man we don't realize we're trying to save ourselves at times until its too late. 2Chronicles 20:17 states 'You will not need to fight in this battle.Position yourselves, stand still and see the salvation of the Lord, who is with you..." Lets stop getting in God's way and let him finish the work He started in us. Read Philippians 1:6

May God be with you all

-Young Bless