Mistakened Romance

This may not be the best poem
But I feel it must be said
That a lot of strange thoughts
Are running through my head
I certainly don't drink beer
Insead it's the liking of a girl
That has brought on a strange fear

Behavior that reeks of irrationality
Hung on to me that Freshman year
But not because I liked a girl of a different nationality
Try as hard as I could, an introduction couldn't form
I wanted to say something, hard as I tried
I thought long, and hard about nearly everything
But no matter how hard I tried, the words only died

Time ran out, I could like her no more
And boy was I bummed
But I then taught myself
That the irrationality had just begun
For that stage known as denial
Became major provocation
Once it stuck that was it
My brain went on instant vacation

School strain on the brain
Made time slow down much so
This time brought the unpleasant thoughts
The denial continued to grow
Though I tried everything to express this feeling
It proved diffucult in the end
To make saying thse things to her
Anything close to appealing

Tension was rising with no escape
Dealing with it was quite hard
Though I tried everything from TV and art
I found my stress releif from a game called DDR ^_^
Now I like her not, thank god that's over
But that didn't finish the story
The mistakes were still made, and guilt troubled me
Here we go again, or not!

So now you know of this story
I doubt I could have forgotten
Hopefully it wasn't too boring
For me it is just plain rotten