The Damned

I've lost so much, every thing's gone away.
I've nothing left to keep the darkness at bay.
Where did my happiness and joy go?
With my sanity, right out the window!

First my daughter was taken from me.
Then the woman with whom I'm meant to be.
What did I do to the Man above?
Why has he taken all that I loved?

A horrible wrong in a past life?
Is that why I now have all this strife?
Am I truly this dark and unlovable man?
I don't even have a place to make a final stand.

I just want to let the darkness take me away
so I don't have to be lonely even one more day.
I want blindness so I don't have to see
what my life has done to me.
I just want peace for a time.
Is that really such a crime?

Oh, well, I guess all hope is lost,
So on life's seas I will continue to toss.
Until one day someone does me a favor,
and pulls the trigger so I am gone forever.
Is it a sin to pray that that happens soon?
I am damned anyway, I am my own life's ruin!
So I'll just sit, and continue to pray
that He shows mercy, and takes this life away!