Demolition of Me

If I told you what I thought
would you even care?
A thousand nights spent by your side,
with all the memories we've shared.
Walls you topple I rebuild,
and this is my defense.
All the times I am forgiven
never quite make sense.
I'm not sure why you are still here
or why you even give a damn.
All our problems stem malice
caused by another man.
I can't promise and I can't forgive,
this is understood.
You say you'll prove you're different,
I really wish you could.
Pull me up from down below
and show me what this means.
A thousand nights spent lying beside you,
always hiding in the seams.