Scott You Mean Everything to Me

"Scott, You Mean Everything To Me"
By Lynnette Britt
October 26th 2005

I sit here crying
Just got off the phone with you
The conversation was fine
I just always cry, thought you knew

I miss you so much
It kills me inside
But just what to do,
I can not decide

For I know not
what you feel for me
I assume you love
But now you are free

I never realized
how much this would hurt
Whenever I think of you
I suddenly become inert

Everytime you leave
and everytime we speak
I cry every time
I always feel so weak

Because you are the Absolute
Love of my existence
But I cannot see
a way through your resistance

I pray to the universe
that I now deserve you
Yes I understand
this separation was due

I never stopped believing
that You're my Soulmate
I never stopped thanking
the twisted thing called fate

For letting me share
in a loveas great as ours
I know it got screwed up
and so it did turn sour

But I have spent everyday
Dreaming of and missing you
I can't do this forever
Please say you need me too?

You are the most special person
that I have ever known
And I want so badly
to have you as my own

You and I belong together
Surely you know it in your heart
I wish I knew before
and could go back and restart

I wish I had known before
That you really are the most perfect
So I could have deserved you
and never shown such disrespect

I have thought deeply
about my offenses towards you
And I deeply regret every instance
I don't deserve your tattoo

I miss those gorgeous slate blue eyes
that stare deep into my soul
Everytime I see you
I wish you didn't have to go

I wish we could linger on
in a new, passionate, perfect love
One that's real, true and pure
as is everything thereof

I just beg the Universe
to help me become better for you
And I'm so scared that
it may still be too soon

But I am also scared
that we will wait too long
And our chance for true love
will all too soon be gone

I've been through calm
and I've been through storm
While you've been gone,
My life's been torn

I know you're happy
now that you're free
I wondered if you'd ever
get back together with me

And then we had a beautiful night
You can't imagine what it meant
I came home from our night and wept
Being without your love is TORMENT

But my cries last night
although cries are sad
Was the happiest cry
I ever could have

Because last night meant
so much to me
I didn't want it to end
I even teared up in the movie

And in the car
I turned away
Because my elation
I could not display

I was happier than
I've ever been
It was so hard
to hold within

For you are the one and only
Love of my life
I wish to the Universe
you'll let me be your wife

You mean everything to me that
another soul ever could
And that is why I need you
Back in my Life for good

I know the person I was before
I know how much I hurt you
But that is not me anymore
I will prove my love's true

By giving you the happy life
You deserve to the greatest degree
I know how perfect you are
So these words are my plea

I need you in my life
More than I need air to breathe
I've freed myself from everything
So now I'm just plain old me

I've freed myself from Hatred
came to terms and let it go
Freed myself from anger
So now our love can grow

I've discovered who I am
and what my passions are
I've learned to accept myself
I had never before gotten that far

I was insecure before
Because I didn't know who I was
And now I know people like me anyway
They like me just because

I am a better person
My Karma is mostly all good
I am confident that I can
Treat you how I should

But I'm scared about losing
My Absolute Last Chance
But I shouldn't be because
I'm tormented over our lost romance

I know I'd never do anything
to screw things up again
And I know what a big statement that is
But I also know my pain within

So trust me when I tell you,
That my love is pure and true
You deserve to know also
That I'd do anything for you.

Love Always, Your wife,
Lynnette