Cheshire Wishes

As I lie in my bed,
I hope that my life;
Will come to an end.

Time keeps passing by,
As the clock slowly shows;
But when will I go?
Only God knows.

If there is a way,
Could you please tell me now?
For me to go sooner,
And how.

By taking this gun,
And putting it to my head;
I pull the trigger,
And now I'm dead.