Where are you now?

It's cold outside. It's raining and dark.
I sit alone in my room wondering how you are.
Where are you now? Are you thinking of me?
As I sit alone, I ask myself if we will ever be one, not torn apart as we are now.
It is hard to look at you knowing another loves you more than I.
It hurts me so badly. Are you with her now? Do you even remember that I am alive?
There is nothing in this world that will keep me from loving you, alas, the world has chosen to keep us apart.
Fate has stepped into play, mysteriously disguised as another I so dearly hold close to my heart.
She knows not of how I feel for you. And I am saddend because she will NEVER know.
Where are you now? Are you thinking of me?
I wish I knew. But as I am dealt each card in the game of life, I must chose carefully which route I am to take.
For the reward of this game is life, a life I may live with you, in happiness and joy.
But If I am dealt a bad hand, the consequences are dire, and that life that I know of now will cease to exist. And I, along with it, shall disappear from this earth.
Where are you now? Are you thinking of me?