Noise Within

Noise from the streets, noise from feuded homes
Can leave one in disgust and in endless groans
But such noise is better than in a specific part
The noise that lies within one's heart

No matter how strong, how smart one could be
The heart is vulnerable, broken easily
A sad sight indeed to see such pain
For one is left in agony, that I cant explain

Especially if one has been desperately holding back
Years of pain that with violence may attack
And those around who seem eager to aid
At times may forget, leading to another heartache

Where, tell me, did I go wrong?
Why hurt me, I'm not that strong
I thought you knew, I thought you felt
The cries inside that for so long I've held

Do you take joy in seeing me cry?
Do you feel satisfied when I say 'I wanna die'?
Do you want me to burst from the hurt inside?
Do you want me, from you, to always hide?

Why this treatment? I am human
Playing with feelings, what were you doing?
You didn't mean a scar deep within
I know, but from me did you expect a grin?

Healing is slow as a feather falling to the ground
The wind takes it, spins it round and around
And when the spin is over, after quite a while
The feather will continue, but afraid of another trial

I don’t want to hurt or to even blame
I'm not even putting guilt or even shame
I'm just declaring that feelings aren't a game
For someone to play with, then think them lame

You don’t mean harm, you don’t want to be cruel
I understand, I forgive, but there is a rule
Don’t hurt, don’t deceive, or even lie
And when you're confronted, do not deny

Everything good is based on trust
Trust is security, trust is a must
If you can't feel that, and I can't too
Then I'm sure you'd know what I'd say to you

If the universe was placed in my left hand
To be weighed with my heart in my right..
Would you believe me, would you understand,
That my right would be in a downward flight??